no passport on another country! I m screwed!

[Isaw]

hi! I am down on morocco, my mother's father is a high ranked man who killed all my family, my mother killed her sister two and she sold me cheaply to a moroccan;(when I was 4 years now I have 21) and now I have morocan citizen; my life is all wrong, she get married again and denied my existence she left without me, I really want to go back, due to the maltratance that get per second and how I post this message; how can win my us country again know?? by marriage or lottery or what; I tried to suicide several times, I studied in morocco and this is the most stupid thing that is happening to me, my life is a nightmare, she took all the money and the cars and she throw to the hell(3 world fu*** country) please mercy people can I come back one day! I am at el jadida now. all my dreams are broken.?!!!! s.o.s