depression after quitting?

[hilotbo1]

hey everyone, i quit smoking cold turkey 30 days ago. i’ve smoked for 18 years, i was on about 5-10 a day and then in 2020 cut down to 3-4 a day. i have to be honest; i always loved smoking as though it was a friend and relied on it as an emotional crutch. i decided to quit due to wanting to improve/protect my health.

it’s been 30 days and the longer this goes on the angrier i feel. i feel so utterly miserable and sad, missing smoking as though i’ve gone through a damn break up or something??? i thought it would get easier over time but every day i’m in an awful bad mood wanting to smoke. i distract myself which helps but as soon as i’m alone with my thoughts i just feel depressed and flat. i won’t smoke, but it’s so hard to resist buying cigarettes when i know having one would make my bad mood would go away.

has anyone experienced this? any advice? i’m also going through other difficult life situations at the moment which probably aren’t helping

[Lanatory]

First off, congratulations on hitting 30 days smoke-free, that’s a huge accomplishment, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now. I totally understand how quitting can feel like losing a friend, smoking is tied to so many emotions and routines. The anger and sadness are completely normal, it’s your body and mind adjusting to a new way of coping. When I quit, I found that physical activity like walking or yoga helped channel those emotions.